September 21, 2010
As I’m typing these words, I am torn between finishing a research report long overdue, starting an assignment that is due tomorrow or just stop, cradle and play with my youngest son! In the last three hours, I’ve been juggling my time over giving my three kids a bath, taking my youngest son from his nanny whenever he cries, or opening a microsoft word document so my other two year old son could click on the shapes, color the new shapes he formed and then allow him to call me and inspect the colors he matched those shapes with. Oh, not to mention that I get interrupted by my eldest four year old daughter who keeps badgering me to buy princess stickers. Something that I promised her since yesterday.
This is the life I have made for myself— a mom to three very active children, a tutor, a teacher, a researcher… and the list could go on and on. I admit that when the deadlines are pressing on me, I feel guilty of being physically present for my children but not emotionally involved. While I see to it that I work (like crazy) when they are asleep, or when Danielle goes to school or write and write in the dead hours of the night— I know deep down that I have to set my priorities straight. Joseph, who is always understanding of my situation makes up for my lack (and slack!). Hence, I have decided to limit my research and writing activities to the minimum so I can have more time for the things that matter most— my children.